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Wednesday, November 30, 2011

maybe, just maybe

So I have decided it may be the right time to resurrect my blog. It has been over a year since I last wrote. At that time, my youngest child was 6 months old. Wow, where has the time gone?? He will be 22 months tomorrow. The last year and a half has given me time to figure out how to navigate through this journey of motherhood with 3 kids. I wasn't sure how I was going to do it, but somehow I have managed. I sent my oldest son Andrew off to kindergarten last year, and now he is in school full time as a 1st grader. I survived the "terrible 3's" with my middle son Elliot. He is now 4 and a half and still has moments, but he is maturing each day. I cannot believe that next year he will go to kindergarten! I have watched my littlest son Owen go from a baby to a busy toddler. He has been a light and a joy to my heart. God, in his Providence, did not choose to give me a daughter. But He gave me the most loving and affectionate little boy. I am truly grateful for him, and I look forward to seeing how his personality will continue to develop.

This past year has been a time of growing and changing for me. I feel a desire to explore what it is I am supposed to do outside this mothering/wife/domestic engineer thing. By outside of, I do not mean going back to a job. I mean doing something creative. Or serving in ways I have not before. I am not sure of anything right now. I just feel like I have lost some of myself and I want to get some of me back. I have been reading Kelly Rae Roberts' ( past blog posts, starting from the beginning of her journey up through today. I really enjoy reading her old posts. I can identify with a lot of what she had to say, especially in those first few posts. Maybe that is what inspired me to restart my blog.

I really hope I can keep up with it. I feel like I need a place to write my thoughts, etc. Even if no one reads this, it doesn't matter. But maybe, just maybe, someone will...