So today starts a new year. A new year!?! I can't believe it! How did it come so quickly? I usually get a little depressed on New Year's day. I think it is because I know that the holidays are over and there is not a lot to look forward to for the next three months except cold, gray weather. I have never been officially tested for it, but I think I may have a touch of seasonal affective disorder(SAD). I struggle with a bit of melancholy in general, but it seems like I have many more periods of a depressed mood starting late fall through early spring. I really noticed it last year when we had days upon days of gray weather and no sunshine. I would think that the start of a new year would bring joy and delight. A time for renewal and starting over. Of starting new habits or new ventures. Of organizing and bettering myself. But somehow it doesn't.
Today is a gray and dreary day. There was a small period of sunshine late this morning, but it disappeared as quickly as it came. The wind is blowing fiercely. As I sat down to write this post, I looked out my kitchen window and saw how the wind was blowing the tall trees above my house. The branches were bending this way and that. And I started thinking about the phrase "the winds of change." Could it be that something is about to change? Or that something needs to change? There are many things I would like to change-bad habits, ways of responding to certain situations, old routines, etc. I am not going to make any new year's resolutions per se, but there are things I am going to try and do differently and things I will start doing. We'll see how it goes. Hopefully tomorrow brings some sunshine!